I have spent most of my life unaware. I don't remember about 98% of my childhood, or my teenage years, twenties, and to some degree my thirties are a blurr. For a while it had gotten better but here lately I feel like I am "gone" again - I mean mentally.
Today I was sitting at my laptop and I realized that I spend most of my day in denial. I read and hear so much about how we need to think positive thoughts and focus on what we want rather than what we have, but it sure hasn't gotten me anywhere. I was perfectly happy and positive last year when my health was improving and then suddenly it started going down hill. Now I tell myself all day long that I AM getting better or that I am already healthy and then at one point reality hits.
I am NOT healthy right now and every day is an effin struggle. There I said it. I wake up wishing the day was over. I get on my knees and beg God to give me wisdom and clarity and to lead me to the person who can at least tell me WHY I have the symptoms I have. I break down and cry, asking Him for something, ANYTHING. I get nothing. I feel numb, disappointed, angry, scared, discouraged, frustrated, and ready to give up.
Is it a surprise that I live in denial more often than not?
Monday, May 4, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
::life::
I wonder why some people have a seemingly great life while others struggle along and are hit with one hardship after another. I realize I am throwing myself a pity-party here, but I am wondering when it gets better. When does life become enjoyable? When do I wake up looking forward to the day rather than wondering how I am going to make it through the day today.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
::Dr. Bolte Update::
My trip to NY was good. I really enjoyed walking around and seeing the sites. Dr. Bolte was nice and spent about 3 1/2 hours with me but I am unsure of how I feel about it. He had me do a stool tests with Genova Diagnostics and also a leaky gut test. I was somewhat disappointed because he is known for solving medical mysteries but for now he is going down the same road as every other doctor - bacteria, leaky gut, stool, etc. I feel I have addressed those issues extensively and that there is something else going on. I am still waiting on the test results.
In the meantime I have had bloody urine twice, flank pain that has now stopped, blood in my stool, and am more fatigued. A urinalysis revealed a pretty bad kidney infection. To avoid taking antibiotics I started taking D-Mannose and hope it will clear it up. I guess it could explain why I have been feeling even more fatigued and why my WBC keeps going down.
I also had some more blood tests done and my aldosterone continues to be high - even higher than the first time. The question is why. The abodminal CT would have revealed an adrenal tumor. I guess it could be a pituitary tumor but I doubt it. So there must be some external reasong for it (secondary hyperaldosteronism). High aldosterone will cause loss of potassium which can result in edema - I sure have a lot of that!
There was another disappointing thing about Dr. Bolte. He feels that Synthroid is better than Armour which I SO do not agree with. He also feels I need to stop taking hydrocortisone and my thyroid medication. That's great - I am all for getting off meds - but with all the stress we currently have trying to move there is no way I can make it without hydrocortisone. I feel I need to stay on it a little longer until we have moved and are settled in. Furthermore, I already gained 14 lbs which I would like to lose. Going off thyroid meds sure won't help me do so.
In an effort to get some hormonal balance I contacted Dr. Franklin's receptionist. He is an old friend from Austin that initially helped me with bio-identical hormones. There is an annual fee for seeing him but it's only $295. Given the fact that some doctors charge that for one visit I didn't think it was bad at all. I was asking some more questions about consultations, fees, etc. and also if he is familiar with hydrocortisone and cytomel (they thyroid med I currently take) and his receptionist said he would waive the annual fee AND he is very familiar with cytomel. I felt SO relieved. I used to trust him with my hormones and while it is hard to trust anybody at this point because I have been misdiagnosed and made worse so many times, if I can't trust him I don't know who I would trust. So it looks like I will start "seeing" him again and I am praying that he can bring my body back into balance. I have been feeling SO miserable and just want to be better.
I am also still on GAPS. I started the intro on 04.20.2009, made it about 7 days, then messed up with too much honey and nut butter. The latter is not supposed to be introduced until stage four or five I believe. So today I am starting over. I am hoping that working with Dr. Franklin on my hormones and doing GAPS will finally allow me to get back to where I need to be. I am SO tired of feeling lousy and having a pregnant looking belly every day since November.
Speaking of pregnant - I watched Knocked Up today again and I cried during the birth. There are many reasons I regret that I had a hysterectomy, and sometimes it's because I cannot have children. There are days - like today- when I am SO sad about the fact that I will never know what it feels like to have a life growing inside of me. And that I will never experience the love you can only have for a child - your own child. I have made a lot of wrong decisions in the past few years and I hope that going forward I will make the right decisions. I am praying for wisdom and clarity.
In the meantime I have had bloody urine twice, flank pain that has now stopped, blood in my stool, and am more fatigued. A urinalysis revealed a pretty bad kidney infection. To avoid taking antibiotics I started taking D-Mannose and hope it will clear it up. I guess it could explain why I have been feeling even more fatigued and why my WBC keeps going down.
I also had some more blood tests done and my aldosterone continues to be high - even higher than the first time. The question is why. The abodminal CT would have revealed an adrenal tumor. I guess it could be a pituitary tumor but I doubt it. So there must be some external reasong for it (secondary hyperaldosteronism). High aldosterone will cause loss of potassium which can result in edema - I sure have a lot of that!
There was another disappointing thing about Dr. Bolte. He feels that Synthroid is better than Armour which I SO do not agree with. He also feels I need to stop taking hydrocortisone and my thyroid medication. That's great - I am all for getting off meds - but with all the stress we currently have trying to move there is no way I can make it without hydrocortisone. I feel I need to stay on it a little longer until we have moved and are settled in. Furthermore, I already gained 14 lbs which I would like to lose. Going off thyroid meds sure won't help me do so.
In an effort to get some hormonal balance I contacted Dr. Franklin's receptionist. He is an old friend from Austin that initially helped me with bio-identical hormones. There is an annual fee for seeing him but it's only $295. Given the fact that some doctors charge that for one visit I didn't think it was bad at all. I was asking some more questions about consultations, fees, etc. and also if he is familiar with hydrocortisone and cytomel (they thyroid med I currently take) and his receptionist said he would waive the annual fee AND he is very familiar with cytomel. I felt SO relieved. I used to trust him with my hormones and while it is hard to trust anybody at this point because I have been misdiagnosed and made worse so many times, if I can't trust him I don't know who I would trust. So it looks like I will start "seeing" him again and I am praying that he can bring my body back into balance. I have been feeling SO miserable and just want to be better.
I am also still on GAPS. I started the intro on 04.20.2009, made it about 7 days, then messed up with too much honey and nut butter. The latter is not supposed to be introduced until stage four or five I believe. So today I am starting over. I am hoping that working with Dr. Franklin on my hormones and doing GAPS will finally allow me to get back to where I need to be. I am SO tired of feeling lousy and having a pregnant looking belly every day since November.
Speaking of pregnant - I watched Knocked Up today again and I cried during the birth. There are many reasons I regret that I had a hysterectomy, and sometimes it's because I cannot have children. There are days - like today- when I am SO sad about the fact that I will never know what it feels like to have a life growing inside of me. And that I will never experience the love you can only have for a child - your own child. I have made a lot of wrong decisions in the past few years and I hope that going forward I will make the right decisions. I am praying for wisdom and clarity.
Monday, March 30, 2009
::Dr. Bolte::
The cleanse I did in January did nothing for me. Neither is SCD or the 10 day broth/tea/water fast I did in February. I finally weighed myself and I have put on 14 lbs - I gained it all between September and December and now can't seem to lose it. It goes without saying how frustrating that is.
I went to see Dr. Kevin Merigian and he felt that I have "fermentation" and "fungal overgrowth" in my gut. That was 6 weeks ago and after taking all the supplements he recommended that cost me around $350 I still have not seen any improvements. My next appointment is on Friday but I am not even sure I should go.
In the meantime I have an appointment with Dr. Bolte on April 9th. He is in NY and I am flying in on the 8th and leaving on the 10th. I had called him in December as he is supposedly the "real Dr. House". He asked me to send him a letter with my medical history and that he would call me. When I had not heard anything several weeks ago I sent him a letter asking if he had gotten my initial letter. Since then I have been asking God specifically that if Dr. Bolte can help me, that He would open up an appointment with Dr. Bolte.
Sunday morning I got a call from Dr. Bolte asking if I am still interested in making an appointment. YES!!! I am reacting to so many foods at this point I don't know what to eat anymore. I have abdominal distention every day and after I eat it gets worse - it's so bad not that I dread eating and most days wait until dinner before I eat. I am praying and hoping that Dr. Bolte can figure out what is wrong.
I went to see Dr. Kevin Merigian and he felt that I have "fermentation" and "fungal overgrowth" in my gut. That was 6 weeks ago and after taking all the supplements he recommended that cost me around $350 I still have not seen any improvements. My next appointment is on Friday but I am not even sure I should go.
In the meantime I have an appointment with Dr. Bolte on April 9th. He is in NY and I am flying in on the 8th and leaving on the 10th. I had called him in December as he is supposedly the "real Dr. House". He asked me to send him a letter with my medical history and that he would call me. When I had not heard anything several weeks ago I sent him a letter asking if he had gotten my initial letter. Since then I have been asking God specifically that if Dr. Bolte can help me, that He would open up an appointment with Dr. Bolte.
Sunday morning I got a call from Dr. Bolte asking if I am still interested in making an appointment. YES!!! I am reacting to so many foods at this point I don't know what to eat anymore. I have abdominal distention every day and after I eat it gets worse - it's so bad not that I dread eating and most days wait until dinner before I eat. I am praying and hoping that Dr. Bolte can figure out what is wrong.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
::cleaning house::
So much has happened since I last blogged - it always does. I wish I could keep up with writing daily or every 2 to 3 days.
I finally got rid of the daily headache, backache, and calf pain after wearing custom made orthotics. The only time I get a headache and backache now is if I go off diet - that would be sugar, alcohol, too much fruit, grains, etc. It's a pain in the ass and I am not happy about it but I can't change it overnight either. I learned about the Specific Carbohydrate Diet (SCD) which is what I am trying next after a 7 (or 10) day cleanse which I am starting today. Immediately after the cleanse I will go on the SCD which starts with chicken broth for 3 to 5 days. I have a multitude of symptoms right now, probably too many to list, but the most bothersome are weight gain and daily, non-stop abdominal distention for 45 days now. On 11/17/2008 I had a flat stomach and on 11/18/2008 I woke up with a pregnant looking stomach and it has not gone away since then. Normally this happends during "PMS" and goes away after a few days but it has never lasted this long. My doctor suggested an intestinal/liver cleanse. Other people who have similar problems have suggested bacterial overgrowth (which was already confirmed by a stool test back in April and apparently it has gotten worse). So in doing research and also signing up at a gluten-free forum I found the SCD. In a nutshell, it cuts out all disaccharides and polysaccharides which are grains and any sugars except honey.
I am hopeful that THIS will finally get me back to where I need to be. There are many people on the SCD who have had the same problems as I have. Most notably multiple food allergies which despite food rotation do not go away. Much like me they get rid of one allergy by avoiding the offending food for several months but by that time they have become intolerant to another food that they have been eating despite rotating that food every 4 days. The SCD supposedly starves out bad bacteria while still nourishing the body. If this does not help I am not sure what I am going to do. I can't even think about that possibility because as it is I am struggling through each day.
I finally got rid of the daily headache, backache, and calf pain after wearing custom made orthotics. The only time I get a headache and backache now is if I go off diet - that would be sugar, alcohol, too much fruit, grains, etc. It's a pain in the ass and I am not happy about it but I can't change it overnight either. I learned about the Specific Carbohydrate Diet (SCD) which is what I am trying next after a 7 (or 10) day cleanse which I am starting today. Immediately after the cleanse I will go on the SCD which starts with chicken broth for 3 to 5 days. I have a multitude of symptoms right now, probably too many to list, but the most bothersome are weight gain and daily, non-stop abdominal distention for 45 days now. On 11/17/2008 I had a flat stomach and on 11/18/2008 I woke up with a pregnant looking stomach and it has not gone away since then. Normally this happends during "PMS" and goes away after a few days but it has never lasted this long. My doctor suggested an intestinal/liver cleanse. Other people who have similar problems have suggested bacterial overgrowth (which was already confirmed by a stool test back in April and apparently it has gotten worse). So in doing research and also signing up at a gluten-free forum I found the SCD. In a nutshell, it cuts out all disaccharides and polysaccharides which are grains and any sugars except honey.
I am hopeful that THIS will finally get me back to where I need to be. There are many people on the SCD who have had the same problems as I have. Most notably multiple food allergies which despite food rotation do not go away. Much like me they get rid of one allergy by avoiding the offending food for several months but by that time they have become intolerant to another food that they have been eating despite rotating that food every 4 days. The SCD supposedly starves out bad bacteria while still nourishing the body. If this does not help I am not sure what I am going to do. I can't even think about that possibility because as it is I am struggling through each day.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
::time::
A whole month has gone by since I last blogged. How does that always happen?
My orthotics came in and I have less pain now. My hormones on the other hand continued to be out of control. Since Dr. Wallner insisted that my dose of hormones was not too high (I was getting between 100 to 200 mg of progesterone in a cream when the normal dose is 20 to 40 mg) and her only suggestion was to put me on antidepressants, I decided it was time for a new doctor. Since it looks like we will be moving to Nashville anyhow I did some searches and found Dr. Mark Calarco at EMP Health in Franklin, TN. After some more research I found an entry at city-data.com about Dr. Calarco. A woman said her friend highly recommended him and that he helped both of them with hormone imbalance.
I went to see him on September 12th since he happened to have a cancellation. He is very nice, kind, and knowledgable. He spent about 2 hours with me and then prepared a dossier, which I just received a few days ago, with a treatment plan. He recommended a ton of supplements which I already ordered and after being off my hormones 4 weeks he will get a baseline of my hormones with a blood test and will then make a recommendation on bio-identical hormone treatment.
At the time I thought it was a good idea being off the hormones 4 weeks. I figured it might give me an idea if I may be able to stop them all together. It's been 9 days now since I have been off of them and I feel miserable. While the cream I was on was dosed way too high, and Dr. Mark agreed, not having any hormones leaves me feeling fatigued, swollen, and miserable.
The day before Bob and I went to Florida the fluid retention and abdominal distention finally went away after 14 1/2 days. I was SO relieved and happy and was able to wear normal clothes in Florida. Four days later, as we were on our way home, it all started back up and I am still swollen. This time I am on day 15 and hating it. I can't wait to get my hormones tested and then start treatment. I am hoping that things will balance out by the time we go on vacation and a cruise end of November. It would be so nice to have a vacation WITHOUT PMS for a change.
My orthotics came in and I have less pain now. My hormones on the other hand continued to be out of control. Since Dr. Wallner insisted that my dose of hormones was not too high (I was getting between 100 to 200 mg of progesterone in a cream when the normal dose is 20 to 40 mg) and her only suggestion was to put me on antidepressants, I decided it was time for a new doctor. Since it looks like we will be moving to Nashville anyhow I did some searches and found Dr. Mark Calarco at EMP Health in Franklin, TN. After some more research I found an entry at city-data.com about Dr. Calarco. A woman said her friend highly recommended him and that he helped both of them with hormone imbalance.
I went to see him on September 12th since he happened to have a cancellation. He is very nice, kind, and knowledgable. He spent about 2 hours with me and then prepared a dossier, which I just received a few days ago, with a treatment plan. He recommended a ton of supplements which I already ordered and after being off my hormones 4 weeks he will get a baseline of my hormones with a blood test and will then make a recommendation on bio-identical hormone treatment.
At the time I thought it was a good idea being off the hormones 4 weeks. I figured it might give me an idea if I may be able to stop them all together. It's been 9 days now since I have been off of them and I feel miserable. While the cream I was on was dosed way too high, and Dr. Mark agreed, not having any hormones leaves me feeling fatigued, swollen, and miserable.
The day before Bob and I went to Florida the fluid retention and abdominal distention finally went away after 14 1/2 days. I was SO relieved and happy and was able to wear normal clothes in Florida. Four days later, as we were on our way home, it all started back up and I am still swollen. This time I am on day 15 and hating it. I can't wait to get my hormones tested and then start treatment. I am hoping that things will balance out by the time we go on vacation and a cruise end of November. It would be so nice to have a vacation WITHOUT PMS for a change.
Friday, September 5, 2008
::finding a good doctor::
When I first started this blog I thought most if not all my problems were related to candida overgrowth. Although it was hard to believe that one day I could tolerate 6 T of coconut oil and the next day even a teaspoon gave me die off pain, that's what people kept telling me. Or rather, the people on the candida Yahoo group I found. That was in October of 2007. I had good intentions of starting the diet on November 1st but never did stick to it. At the time I had PMS every 7 days for 3 days - it was awful. Every time I had PMS I would give in to things like bread, dairy, sugar, etc.
January 2008 I got tired of being in pain every day and started seeing Dr. Sherfey in Monterey, TN. I had gone to get a massage, hoping it would help with the pain, and Donna, the massage therapist recommended him. Bob and I went together, the doc spent 3 hours with us taking the medical history himself, ordered some blood tests, and charged us $500. My insurance company paid 60% of that.
He found bacterial imbalance, high iron levels, c. diff infection, lots of other stuff, and eventually pretty bad adrenal fatigue. When I first started seeing him I thought he was being very thorough and felt it was a good thing I went to see him. At this point I am not so sure anymore. He DID find high iron levels but obviously they werenn't so high that they were the underlying source of my problems.
I had another appointment where he checked me for metabolic imbalance ($75) and then one to examine my distented stomach. Before going to see him I said he would weigh me but not to tell me how much I weigh. Weeeeeeeeeeell, he didn't, but he said I have no medical evidence of fluid retention and maybe I "just gained weight". I wanted to shoot him. This is when I had been swollen every single day for close to 30 days and even I found it hard to believe that it wasn't actual weight gain. My anxiety was sky high during that time, I was depressed, and basically didn't knwo how to make it through the day. So to tell me that, after I told him repeatedly about my eating disorder, was horrible.
Two days ago I got another bill from him in the mail for that "examination" of my stomach and all the email and phone conversations we had - $375. Ouch!!! I sent him a check and asked if he could apply it to the office visits since I doubt my insurance company will pay for phone or email conversations.
My orthotics still haven't come in and waiting is driving me nuts. I am beginning to think that candida is the least of my problems. There's probably some overgrowth but my guess is once I start wearing my orthotics and then get my back adjusted, the pain will go away. What I thought is a toe nail fungus is just a really bad, thick nail. The podiatrist I went to see took a sample and had it evaluated at the lab - not a fungus. I have also been reading that problems with your spine will cause nerve intereference so that the brain cannot communicate with the rest of your body as it is supposed. This can then cause health issues anywhere in your body, including hormonal imbalance. I am not saying my feet are ultimately the problem of my hormonal imbalance, but I wonder if that is why my body is having such hard time getting back to where it needs to be. My diet may not be perfect, but I eat good 95 % of the time, I exercise 4 to 6 days a week, and since I have quit my job I rest more, take baths 3 to 4 times a week, and in general do a lot of stuff to take care of myself. Yet I am not getting the results I had expected.
I also started reading the book Empowering Your Health by Dr. Asa Andrew. He uses a whole body approach by looking at structural, emotional, and chemical imbalances in your body. I figured this is exactly what I need since I am also still wondering if I have some brain chemistry imbalance going on that is contributing to the frequent PMS. So I did some searches on the internet and found a blog by a woman who went to see him. I went back in her blog and read about her appointments with him from the start. She had actually gone to see Dr. Mercola who I love, but he wasn't able to help her. Dr. Asa however has been able to heal her of the Type II Diabetes she has been dealing with.
I made an appointment with Dr. Asa for October 16th, 2008 - it's the first available appointment he had since he is going back to medical school. Oh yeah, he's a chiropractor but in his book he keeps talking about medical rounds and they refer to him as a "board certified physician". Then they called me and said they had a cancellation for today at 11 AM. That was a few days ago and I took it. Yesterday, wanting to be prepared, I did some more searches on him and came across this blog. Needless to say I was starting to question I if I really want to see Dr. Asa. I did find it odd that they schedule appointments 15 minutes apart when in his book he speaks of the importance about spending time with each client. So I clicked on the comments and found this. After that I really did not want to see him and cancelled the appointment. I had also found Dr. Jana (from the comment) and we started emailing back and forth. It turns out she does the same thing he does but at a different chiro clinic. I made an appointment with her and felt a little better. However, as we started exchanging emails, I realized that she can't order blood tests, she can't prescribe my Armour thyroid med, and she doesn't do x-rays at her location. She's also only been doing hormonal balancing for 1 to 2 years and she can't prescribe hormones so I am NOT going to see her.
At first I was really bummed last night and even regretted canceling the appt. with Dr. Asa, but maybe it was all for the best. Maybe things WILL improve when I get my orthotics and I won't need a new doctor. If not, then I still have the appointment with Dr. Asa on October 16th and in the meantime I will be doing some searches for alternative practitioners in the Nashville area.
In the meantime I am trying to stay positive although I am PMSing again and I am on day 4 today. All my clothes are tight, I feel like my butt has doubled in size overnight, as have my thighs, and my stomach looks like I am pregnant. How awesome it would be if that didn't bother me but it does. That along with the headache and backache is enough to make me mad. I am taking 5-HTP and St. John's Wort to try and keep my mood up. Actually, I decided to get back on the St. John's Wort every day since it needs time to build up in your system. When I first started my current hormone cream I thought I wouldn't need it anymore, but maybe I do.
January 2008 I got tired of being in pain every day and started seeing Dr. Sherfey in Monterey, TN. I had gone to get a massage, hoping it would help with the pain, and Donna, the massage therapist recommended him. Bob and I went together, the doc spent 3 hours with us taking the medical history himself, ordered some blood tests, and charged us $500. My insurance company paid 60% of that.
He found bacterial imbalance, high iron levels, c. diff infection, lots of other stuff, and eventually pretty bad adrenal fatigue. When I first started seeing him I thought he was being very thorough and felt it was a good thing I went to see him. At this point I am not so sure anymore. He DID find high iron levels but obviously they werenn't so high that they were the underlying source of my problems.
I had another appointment where he checked me for metabolic imbalance ($75) and then one to examine my distented stomach. Before going to see him I said he would weigh me but not to tell me how much I weigh. Weeeeeeeeeeell, he didn't, but he said I have no medical evidence of fluid retention and maybe I "just gained weight". I wanted to shoot him. This is when I had been swollen every single day for close to 30 days and even I found it hard to believe that it wasn't actual weight gain. My anxiety was sky high during that time, I was depressed, and basically didn't knwo how to make it through the day. So to tell me that, after I told him repeatedly about my eating disorder, was horrible.
Two days ago I got another bill from him in the mail for that "examination" of my stomach and all the email and phone conversations we had - $375. Ouch!!! I sent him a check and asked if he could apply it to the office visits since I doubt my insurance company will pay for phone or email conversations.
My orthotics still haven't come in and waiting is driving me nuts. I am beginning to think that candida is the least of my problems. There's probably some overgrowth but my guess is once I start wearing my orthotics and then get my back adjusted, the pain will go away. What I thought is a toe nail fungus is just a really bad, thick nail. The podiatrist I went to see took a sample and had it evaluated at the lab - not a fungus. I have also been reading that problems with your spine will cause nerve intereference so that the brain cannot communicate with the rest of your body as it is supposed. This can then cause health issues anywhere in your body, including hormonal imbalance. I am not saying my feet are ultimately the problem of my hormonal imbalance, but I wonder if that is why my body is having such hard time getting back to where it needs to be. My diet may not be perfect, but I eat good 95 % of the time, I exercise 4 to 6 days a week, and since I have quit my job I rest more, take baths 3 to 4 times a week, and in general do a lot of stuff to take care of myself. Yet I am not getting the results I had expected.
I also started reading the book Empowering Your Health by Dr. Asa Andrew. He uses a whole body approach by looking at structural, emotional, and chemical imbalances in your body. I figured this is exactly what I need since I am also still wondering if I have some brain chemistry imbalance going on that is contributing to the frequent PMS. So I did some searches on the internet and found a blog by a woman who went to see him. I went back in her blog and read about her appointments with him from the start. She had actually gone to see Dr. Mercola who I love, but he wasn't able to help her. Dr. Asa however has been able to heal her of the Type II Diabetes she has been dealing with.
I made an appointment with Dr. Asa for October 16th, 2008 - it's the first available appointment he had since he is going back to medical school. Oh yeah, he's a chiropractor but in his book he keeps talking about medical rounds and they refer to him as a "board certified physician". Then they called me and said they had a cancellation for today at 11 AM. That was a few days ago and I took it. Yesterday, wanting to be prepared, I did some more searches on him and came across this blog. Needless to say I was starting to question I if I really want to see Dr. Asa. I did find it odd that they schedule appointments 15 minutes apart when in his book he speaks of the importance about spending time with each client. So I clicked on the comments and found this. After that I really did not want to see him and cancelled the appointment. I had also found Dr. Jana (from the comment) and we started emailing back and forth. It turns out she does the same thing he does but at a different chiro clinic. I made an appointment with her and felt a little better. However, as we started exchanging emails, I realized that she can't order blood tests, she can't prescribe my Armour thyroid med, and she doesn't do x-rays at her location. She's also only been doing hormonal balancing for 1 to 2 years and she can't prescribe hormones so I am NOT going to see her.
At first I was really bummed last night and even regretted canceling the appt. with Dr. Asa, but maybe it was all for the best. Maybe things WILL improve when I get my orthotics and I won't need a new doctor. If not, then I still have the appointment with Dr. Asa on October 16th and in the meantime I will be doing some searches for alternative practitioners in the Nashville area.
In the meantime I am trying to stay positive although I am PMSing again and I am on day 4 today. All my clothes are tight, I feel like my butt has doubled in size overnight, as have my thighs, and my stomach looks like I am pregnant. How awesome it would be if that didn't bother me but it does. That along with the headache and backache is enough to make me mad. I am taking 5-HTP and St. John's Wort to try and keep my mood up. Actually, I decided to get back on the St. John's Wort every day since it needs time to build up in your system. When I first started my current hormone cream I thought I wouldn't need it anymore, but maybe I do.
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